Introspection

Introspection, looking within, is something I’ve done a lot of over the past year. It wasn’t until I reached my 60th year that I began to seriously think about my legacy.  When my time is up, I want to have made my mark.  My dream is to leave this life having played a role in ending the killing of our unborn children.  I want my children and grandchildren to be proud of what I’ve done and to know that I did it all for them.  I want them to see that I wanted nothing for my efforts other than a positive outcome for the tiny human beings I fought for.

I find myself, these days, looking more within than without.  The material things that I worked so hard for are no longer important to me.  Almost daily I contemplate giving all of it up and working full-time toward my goal of ending abortion.  I finally know that money and possessions are fleeting and ephemeral.   The truly important things in life are free but priceless.  Happiness for me used to be making more money and buying more stuff.  Not anymore.  Happiness for me now is watching a hungry child eat, running in the grass with my grandson, and searching for the right combination of words that just might change even one mind or help save one child.

Looking within, we can all find our own special purpose.  When you find yours you’ll know it. It will be something that you can’t wait to start every day, and won’t want to stop at day’s end.  It won’t feel like a job but it will give you more than you could ever give it.  You’ll lose track of time when you’re fully immersed in it and every milestone your life’s purpose carries you by will leave you with a sense of peace like you’ve never experienced before.

As a private person by choice, my fight to end abortion forces me to push beyond the veneer behind which most of my friends and family see me as rather aloof and unemotional.  Spouting my innermost thoughts into the ether for anyone to see and critique is uncomfortable to me; but if that is what I have to do to get my message out, so be it.  I know in my heart that fighting for the lives of every unborn child is what I have to do at this time and this place in my life.

Some may think that my goal of ending abortion is unrealistic.  I’m one man working to shut down a multi-billion dollar industry.  What could possibly go wrong?  I’ve chosen to pursue this fight using the bumble bee principle.  Bumble bees are aerodynamically unstable and, according to all the laws of physics, should not be able to fly.  They don’t know they shouldn’t be able to fly, so they fly anyhow.  I’m not smart enough to even consider that I could lose a fight against a Goliath industry that kills babies for money, so I fail to see a problem here.  Besides, I’m working for a just cause and they’re a bunch of baby killers.  I can’t explain it, but I’ve seen how this ends; life wins.