Looking For Answers

Where is our life energy before we are conceived?  Is it confined to our body while we are alive?  Where does it go after the death of our physical body?  Does the concept of time apply to the animating force we call life?  If our life force has no beginning and no end, why are we given such a short physical life to determine how we will spend forever?  I don’t have an answer to any of these questions, although I ponder them constantly.

While our lives, in the context of eternity, are short; our time alive is priceless.  We squander our time and our lives by killing our own, worrying about money, possessions, and countless other unimportant things.  We fail to see our fellow human beings as our brothers and sisters and the family that they truly are. We allow thousands of unborn children to be killed everyday; literally standing by as our family members are murdered.  We pursue our physical lives as if our total existence is confined to the time period between birth and our last breath.

I’m slowly seeing it differently.  I don’t know where I was before I became a physical being and I don’t know where I’ll go when the body I reside in dies.  I’ve come to realize that I’m more than a rather mediocre assembly of skin and bones.  So is every other human being, from the moment of conception until they leave their bodies.  We all received our gift of life for a reason.  No one will convince me that some of us were put here to kill millions of unborn children, or that industries dedicated to killing babies for money are serving humanity.  And someone please tell me why children go to bed hungry in America while our government sends over $500 million to Planned Parenthood every year.

As I get older I feel a sense of urgency to accomplish my goal of ending abortion.  While my time may be growing short, my resolve will never die.   That’s what life is about; pursuing worthy goals and doing what you know in your heart is right.  One of the great mysteries of life is that none of us knows when ours will end.  When my last day comes I hope to leave this world knowing that I saved some lives and changed some more.  I hope I will have made my children and grandchildren proud of what I accomplished and willing to carry on the work I began.

Life is short enough already.  The last thing we need to be doing is ending new lives just as they are beginning.  Help me end the practice of abortion and help make the world a better place.  If you choose not to help, I understand.  It’s hard to take a stand for something you believe in, even if you know it’s the right thing to do.  Find your own way to serve others and I’ll press on, unafraid and undeterred.

The Big Picture

At this stage of my life I’m looking at things in a different way than I did when I was younger.  I’ve been a fitness buff for many years, and at 61 I’m in pretty good shape.  I’m doing everything I can to delay the inevitable decline that I know is coming.  My motives are somewhat selfish.  I want to experience life with my children and grandchildren for as long as possible.  And I want to have the energy to fight the good fight as I work to end abortion.

It’s taken a large portion of my life to realize that life is not something you take for granted.  I’ve come to embrace all the positive thinking mumbo jumbo that actually makes sense when you think about it; “live for today, tomorrow isn’t guaranteed, and your next heartbeat could be your last, so don’t waste it.”  I’d like to think that with age comes wisdom, and I hope that I’m not the exception to the rule.  I’ve never really participated in organized religion, but I feel closer to God than I ever have.

I was called 2 years ago to dedicate my life to ending abortion.  It’s a calling I can feel in my heart and a calling that I know was from God.  While I’m not deserving of His trust, I’m committed to answering His call and standing on the side of life for the rest of mine.  The big picture, as I see it for me, is placing the lives of innocent children above my own. It’s working to help someone every day and seeing one life saved as worthy of a lifetime’s work.  My goal is to save millions of lives, and I take it personally every day that Planned Parenthood remains in business.

We’re all included in the big picture and we’re all here at this time and this place for a reason.  As much as many of us would like to live our lives, mind our own business, and leave the hard work of changing the world to others, it’s up to each of us to do our part.  Our gift of life comes with conditions.  In exchange for the miracle of life, we are honor bound to serve our fellow man and to hold every life in reverence.  When the human condition devolves to the point that we kill one another out of intolerance and allow industries to make billions of dollars for killing our children, we have some work to do.

The dysfunction and violence that permeates our society is a clear signal that something isn’t right.  We all can see it and most of us will try to get by without doing anything to oppose evil or to right the wrongs that our inaction perpetuates.  The big picture for me involves living a life focused on honor and integrity.  It’s centered around a personal code of ethical conduct that I hold myself to, and a commitment to help anyone in need at any time.  The big picture, as I see it, is my individual perception of reality, just as the billions of other human beings inhabiting the planet earth have their own.

The big picture for me won’t be complete until I live in a world that no longer kills its children.  Until then, I will work to change the hearts and minds of my fellow human beings, one at a time if necessary, to insure that every unborn child is allowed to fully experience the miracle of life..


We all live our lives with the expectation that our next heartbeat will occur, tomorrow will come, and the tiny planet we live on will continue to spin on its axis.  All these things that we take for granted could end in an instant, but we have faith that they won’t.  That’s what faith is; acknowledgment that unseen, but real forces have been put into motion by a higher power that none of us can fully comprehend.  A boundless and abundant universe surrounds us, and instead of marveling at its miracles we spend our time in pursuit of material possessions and temporal pleasures.

We view our brief lives as the totality of our existence, ignoring the fact that we are eternal beings with no beginning and no end. Even though our physical lives are brief, the gift of life is priceless. It must be valued above all else and accepted as the gift from God that it is. Most of us fail to realize that the actions we take in this lifetime will follow us for eternity and affect countless others forever.  The cause I have embraced for the time I have left is to bring an end to the killing of our unborn children.

When we end an innocent human life we deny our Creator’s wishes.  I don’t pretend to understand why He grants life to a child conceived through rape or incest but I accept that He has a reason, and I accept His infallibility.  Executing a child for a crime committed by its father doesn’t mitigate the crime, but seeks to legitimize the violent killing of the innocent child.  We rely daily on the miracles of gravity, quantum physics, and our ability to simply breathe without thinking about them.  At the same time we allow thousands of our unborn children to be killed as a matter of convenience; denying them the most treasured of God’s creations, life.

The grand promise of eternal life is not without conditions.  We are morally obligated to protect the weakest among us and to honor our Creator’s wishes.  Our faith in an afterlife does not trump our duty to preserve and protect those living in the physical world, including our unborn children.  Acknowledgement that life begins at conception is the first step toward ending abortion.  An unborn child, at every stage of development, from the moment of conception to birth and beyond, is a living human being.  This is a scientifically incontrovertible fact, yet thousands of children die every day in my country’s abortion mills.

While I’m in favor of laws that will restrict access to abortion and ban certain procedures, I’m convinced that we will continue to allow our children to be legally killed until we change the hearts and minds of those in favor of deciding who should live or die, based solely on the condemned’s stage of development and their selfish wishes to make what they think of as an unwelcome gift, just go away.  I have faith that we will stop allowing our children to be killed in my lifetime; because without faith, there is no hope.